I have been working on decluttering at home, and this week my focus was my bedroom closet. I find myself holding on to many items that I haven’t worn in years.
I am embarrassed to say what I thought would be one bag of clothing turned out to be three, and I am talking about the huge lawn sized trash bags.
The bags were heavy as I was carrying them down the stairs to my car for the donation center. But I felt a lighter as if a burden was let go.
I gave myself permission to get rid of whatever I might find in the back dresser drawers or stuffed in the closet. To live in the present of what fits now and keep the items that I actually enjoy wearing. To let go of the negative self talk; “someday” this will fit, “someday” I will lose the weight, “someday” I will not be a failure.
It was incredible how a simple chore could be therapeutic. In this process, I came across a brand new t-shirt tucked in the back of the drawer that said “be nice” with beautiful wildflowers on it. I felt God tug at my heart personally to be kinder to myself and I was aware of all the negative thoughts that had overtaken and weighed me down.
The Lord showed me this was not the truth. That He sees me. I was looking at things through a dimly lit mirror where my sight was obscured, but the truth is clear.
He asked me, “Do you want to be healed?” I answered, “Yes, Lord, I want to be healed.”
A memory of wildflowers in the field was shown to me and the Lord spoke to my heart. “Remember the wildflowers, my daughter, they are beautiful.”
In that moment, I feel an outpouring of love and an invitation to be free, like the wildflowers in the field. I step forward, leave the dimly lit mirror behind and walk into the light.
Learn from the way the wildflowers grow. Matthew 6:28
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