Fears and Tears

God’s hand was always a part of my life. He was always there since the very beginning, before I took my first breath, nurturing me into life. The hand of God continues to be with me, powerful yet gentle, comforting, secure and always protecting me with a Father’s love.

Lord, you have probed me, you know me; you know when I sit and stand, you understand my thoughts from afar. My travels and my rest you mark; with all my ways your are familiar. Even before a word is on my tongue, Lord, you know it all. Behind and before you encircle me and rest your hand upon me. Psalm 139:1-5

The Lord’s hand knows when to hold on and when to let go. He is there, reaching out, saying “Follow Me”. He is there when I fall to wrap His arms around me saying “I love you”. He is there to let me go, to experience life, to grow and fulfill His dreams for me. He delights in me, watching me and waiting for me to share with Him my hopes and dreams, my sadness and fears, and my love for Him.

“I am the light of the world. Whoever follows Me will not walk in darkness, but have the light of life.” John 8:12

God cares for me so deeply which He gives a glimpse of this love in the heart of a mother. As I watch my children grow up, ready to go out into this world as adults, my heart feels so many emotions. Love yet fear, happiness yet sadness, losing yet gaining, so many bittersweet emotions with all the precious memories watching them grow up. The pain I feel when they are hurting, or the joy in my heart when they are thriving.

They are finding their way. My hand is always here for them, whether I am preparing them a home cooked meal, praying for them, comforting with a hug or letting go as they walk out the door. Finding comfort that my hands are covered with God’s hand as He says, I have you and your children in the palm of my hand and I press them close to My heart.

You stretch out your hand; your right hand saves me. The Lord is with me to the end. Lord, your love endures forever. Never forsake the work of your hands. Psalm 138:7-8.