Fears and Tears

Everyday I am faced with many choices, but in a discerning life it ultimately comes down to two: growing closer to the Lord or moving further away from the Lord. It is the former that I seek and desire, to be aware and listen to the prompting of my heart, to give the Lord quiet time so I can hear Him speak though the chaos that the world is screaming so loudly.

Do not conform yourself to this age but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and pleasing and perfect. Romans 12:2

My heart is at peace when I seek Him in all that I do, when I bring Him my cares and concerns, when I am patient because it is His timing and not my own. Time is a gift from God, I want to use it for His will and to grow closer to Him, to focus on what draws my heart to His.

When you call me, when you go pray to me, I will listen to you. When you look for me, you will find me. Yes, when you seek me with all your heart. Jer 29:12-14

It is an exercise of my will, to constantly turn back to the Lord. He is always there, but I am not. He understands this and is patient and He waits for me. He calls to me and says, “My daughter, feel the rhythm and beat of your heart, my heart joins to yours and speaks to your soul, fusing love in the inmost part of your heart; I choose you, my daughter, my beloved, my beautiful one, I choose you.”

We love because He first loved us 1 John:19