Fears and Tears

Silence….does good to the soul. St. Therese of Lisieux

My body and soul seek a sacred silence; one that brings peace and rest, one that stirs the heart to love and to be loved.

I have struggled all my life with the feeling of I don’t belong, that I am not part of the group, and I have desired to have a best friend. One that would call me and want to talk, invite me to go to the movies or go out to lunch, someone who wanted to spend time with me. I have felt alone and lonely most of my life. Even when I am around people, this feeling has followed me. It doesn’t show on the outside, but inside is where I carry this wound.

Patience, prayer and silence – these are what give strength to the soul. St. Faustina

I have noticed over the last year, that this emptiness has been slowly going away. The more I spend time with the Lord, the less I feel lonely. It is as if He is chipping away at this hidden area of my life with His love. I feel peace in my heart, there is a change that I can feel happening within me. It has been a gentle and gradual process, as if droplets of water are washing over me.

I continue to move forward, one step at a time, listening in the sacred silence, for the one whom my heart longs for, for the one whom my heart desires, for the one whom my heart loves. I spend time with Him; my Lord, my God, my friend.

It is great wisdom to know how to be silent. St. John of the cross