Fears and Tears

Thank you for all your prayers for my son. I have a calm around me that can only be explained by much prayer. He is scheduled for surgery tomorrow and I know that it will be ok and he will be in good hands.

The Lord has shown me in this how He is always there and His love is always being poured out and never ending. That love can never be outdone and it is poured out abundantly. It is hard for me to allow myself to be loved, to feel worthy of love, and to put myself out there. The fear of rejection lingers over me as I feel I am not good enough.

I have come to know over the years that this comes from past hurts that have wounded me. When certain situations arise, the pain is felt once again, it comes to the surface, letting me know I must deal with it.

I believe that this is a grace from God, because it makes me aware of why certain things cause fear and anxiety. It allows me to surrender them to God and allow healing to happen, for His love to be poured out upon me.

By the Lord showing me this, it has helped me see others with more compassion and kindness, for me to pour out my love and prayers on others. Love is a beautiful thing, because it is never ending, like a vast ocean. It stretches out in a great distance and depth reflecting the rays of the sun, and seems to carry a great mystery.

The love of God is poured out, and I spend quiet time with Him, on a beautiful summer day under the blue sky, and I accept His love with a thankful heart.

When did God’s love for you begin? When He began to be God. When did He begin to be God? Never, for He has always been without beginning and without end, and so has always loved you from eternity. St. Francis de Sales