Fears and Tears

I have completed my first week of “Magnify 90” which highlights St. Gemma and the virtue of humility. Magnify 90 is a book that guides one through a new way of letting things go, for a period of time that distract us from God. It then adds in specific prayers and other suggestions to fill those now empty spaces. I can say that I do feel more peaceful without the noise of tv, social media, or movies vying for my attention as well as the effects of the added prayer time.

This week I ate meals at the kitchen table instead of in front of the tv, played board games with family members, read books, napped, took walks, and had conversations with people. It brought me back to a simpler life where I am present in the moment.

I also spent more time in prayer this week. Through this time, I have felt the Lord invite me to listen more and talk less. I feel that I am in a deserted place, however I am not alone, the Lord is with me.

I did receive the grace of healing this week from God. An old wound that was buried deep in my heart from years ago surfaced through one of my meditation times. I had carried it for many years along with unforgiveness on my part. With the grace of God, I was able to forgive this person and let that thorn go that had been piercing my heart. I give all praise, glory, and thanks to God for this special grace.

I am ready, Lord for week two, I pray that You will lead me, with Your kind and gentle voice, where I am to go. Thank you for my prayer partner, I pray for her the graces she needs as she begins week two, Lord, shower her with Your love and embrace and lead her where she is to go. Amen.

As the cold of the winter sets in, I spend more time with the Lord, in the quiet and stillness, and let go.